What do you do with the negative inner monologue? With thoughts like I’m not good enough? When they become present, I’ve been getting better at letting those thoughts be while not accepting them as my truth.
In connection to this topic of self-worth, I want to share some insight I got from watching a YouTube video called “Texting Your Crush (Inside Juanpa Ep. 1)”. It reminded me of the movie Inside Out which focuses on the emotions of joy, fear, anger, disgust, and sadness and how these affect our lives.
In the video, Boss, Flirty, Sensitive, Cool, Cold-heart, and Intern Juanpas exist in the mind of human Juanpa. Juanpa takes us inside his head to show the internal process of texting a crush. (Note: Juanpa Zurita is a Mexican Youtuber known for vlogging and comedy skits.)
Insecure Juanpa stood out to me because he reminded me of my insecure self. When he gets a text from Lele his crush, Insecure Juanpa says, “We don’t deserve this girl or this opportunity.” Throughout the video the negativity mostly comes from Insecure Juanpa while all of the other Juanpas try to secure a date with Lele.
Even after Lele agrees to go out, Insecure Juanpa tries to get in the way by typing, “I am not worth it.” At this point, the other Juanpas rush to stop him from texting this to Lele.
Seeing Insecure Juanpa on screen was a reminder of how we all have different sides of ourselves. Juanpa without his personas seems super friendly, down to earth, funny, happy, and confident. It took me some time to get used to Insecure Juanpa because that’s not the side Juanpa shares with his viewers as an actor and entertainer.
So this got me thinking how at the end of the the day it’s not our insecure selves that gets things done. For me, it’s usually my determined or preserving side that lets me get things done.
Seeing all of Juanpa’s sides of himself working together made me think that there’s no need to fire the Insecure Self from their job. When the negative inner monologue becomes loud, we need to remember to let the other sides of ourselves push us forward.
How do you handle negative inner monologue? What are your thoughts on negative inner monologue?