If we were having coffee, I would tell you that

I finally opened Ocean Vuong’s new book On Earth We’re Briefly Gorgeous. It’d been waiting on the bookshelf to be read.

The first lines did not disappoint. Vuong writes, Dear Ma, I am writing to reach you–even if each word I put down is one word further from where you are. What do those words mean to you?

They made me a bit teary because as much as I love my mom, I sometimes feel that no matter how I explain myself, there are things that we’ll never be able to understand about each other.

Sometimes the more we say, the more distance builds between us.

If we were having coffee, I would tell you that I’ve been reading the Bible more often. Reading it helps keep me peaceful and focused. Sometimes my thoughts try to convince me that this or that is the right way. The word of God makes its way back into my head. It keeps me from doing stupid selfish things.

If we were having coffee, I would tell you that sometimes I don’t recognize the person I see in the mirror. The eyes that stare back at me look livelier. Braver.

Has that happened to you? You change so quickly or change comes at you so quick that when you take a moment to look around, you feel like you’re in a dream or living somebody else’s life?

If we were having coffee, I would tell you that it takes effort to see how everyone is fighting their own battles. We are all doing the best we can with what life gives us. Only we individually know how to make the most with what we have. Whether we end up doing things for love, justice, or our dreams.

If we were having coffee, I would tell you that I’ve had some good cries in the past few months. (This is not to say that I cry daily.) Those cries taught me to stop making assumptions. They taught me to tell and show people that I love them more often.

If we were having coffee, I would also tell you that I’m full of so much hope. I would tell you that I don’t ever want to give up.

Life isn’t easy, but it is beautiful. I’m curious to see where this living takes me. Are you curious to see where this living takes you, too?

If we were having coffee, what would you tell me?

8 thoughts on “If we were having coffee, I would tell you that

  1. Dear Andrea, you are so welcome for the blessings, I sent you extra special blessings this morning, with great gratitude for you and your generosity!!! ❀ ~ I hope you have a wonderful time with your Mom, where does she live, Oklahoma?

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  2. If we were having coffee, I’d tell you to read The Four Agreements, that I was impressed with your choices in books, and I’d be interested in a Christian’s point of view on it.
    If we were having coffee, I’d nod my head and tell you that I know what you mean about that mirror, that I can’t see the young girl in me anymore, but I know she must be there in the wrinkles. I hope that others can see her in my heart.
    If we were having coffee, I’d ask you what you are doing for you? and I’d nod when we agree that we all struggle as women but we push onward anyway.
    If we were having coffee, I would take a few moments here and there to look out the window at the wonder of the world and say a silent thank you that you wanted to spend time with someone to make that human connection and see what a beautiful being you are.

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    • Hi Mimi, Thank you so much having coffee with me and for your beautiful words. Would you believe if I told you I already read The Four Agreements, multiple times? It’s been a while since I reread the book though. I really loved it. It would serve me well to reread it since I’m still making assumptions :). I’ve been trying my best to not take work home, so that I can enjoy my weekends, relax, & have time to focus on creative writing & blogging. I can see the young girl in your heart! Onward, Andrea

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  3. Beautiful post, Andrea… I love how real it is, and I love getting to know you more… I really appreciate your authenticity and the sweet little photo of yourself… If we were having coffee, I would tell you that I am really struggling to accept things as they are (living with the chronic illness, Fibromyalgia), and I am committed to the daily practices that help me to happy up, and I am learning how to manage things better… And, I am super excited that my younger son is coming to visit us for a week in November! πŸ™‚ ~ Lots of love to you… you lively, brave woman! ❀

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    • Thank you so much, Teja! I’m so with you on accepting things as they are, the struggle of it too. I’ve been reading your book “Reaching for Orange”, and I really appreciate your blessings, practices, and questions. Being committed to happy up makes so much difference because it helps to see the light in every moment. It’s good to hear that your son is visiting you in November! I hope ya’ll enjoy the time together! πŸ™‚ ~ Lots of love to you too! ❀

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      • Dear Andrea, I just now saw your reply here, for some reason I didn’t get the email notification… I’m so happy to hear that you are appreciating Reaching for Orange! Makes me smile… πŸ™‚
        Thanks for your good wishes on my son’s visit… in the meantime I have more great news that now my older son is coming to visit us here in December!!! I’m so super excited that I will get to see both sons in the next 2 months!!! Yay… even though I’m not feeling well, I will be filled up with their love!!! ❀
        May your struggles be light and your heart be joyous! πŸ™‚

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      • Dear Teja, That’s so exciting that you get to see both of your sons!! May they fill you up with so much love and may you feel better!! ❀ I get to visit my mom in November too, and I’m really looking forward to seeing her πŸ™‚ I bet your sons are looking forward to seeing you too! Thank you as always for your blessings!

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