A Personal Story
One of the hardest experiences of my life was the first semester of teaching by myself from January to May of last year.
I say “by myself” because I also taught from September to December of 2017, but my sponsor teacher was always by my side to guide and support me every step of the way. She also helped me teach a couple of classes a day and provided constructive criticism.
I arrived at my new school mid year which meant my students had several substitutes before me. They weren’t used to structure. On top of all of this, my classroom management skills were at the rookiest level ever. Before I could get to the teaching part, I needed to manage the classroom effectively.
I’d interned at a school where getting A’s was expected, so we rarely had discipline problems. At my new job, I lost control of my classes multiple times. I felt like quitting my job on an almost daily basis because I was also struggling and juggling with everything required of teaching besides classroom management.
Some students hated me, and they told me in my face. They hated me because I gave the class the structure, rules, and expectations they weren’t used to. Some students came to class with no intention of completing work. Students talked back to me and tested me with their misbehavior.
You’re probably wondering how I pushed myself through all of this.
Thursday, August 30, 2018
Don’t be fooled by his cuteness.
On Wednesday I attended class at university after a long day at work. I questioned my decision to take the two courses I signed up for because I was already tired by the time the class started.
Today, I read a few pages of an assigned chapter, and I don’t regret the decision anymore. The chapter talks about behavior management which I want to improve on in my teaching. I include a picture my sister’s dog because he chewed on the pages of this week’s assigned reading. I tend to leave all my stuff on the floor.. 🙂
Even though teaching can be super difficult at times, my students make my life better. They don’t know that they’re my greatest teachers. I have two classes of students that I thought last semester, and I’m still memorizing the names of my new students. This weekend I’m going to do lots of lesson planning, so that I’m not as stressed during the week. I also get an extra day off on Monday!
- I’ve been wearing dresses and skirts more. I plan to buy more dresses and skirts this weekend. Wearing dress and skirts is making me feel more comfortable with my femininity. I have never been a girly girl.
- I reconnected with a friend I lost touch with and a classmate I’ve had in previous university classes.
- My current jam is “Side Effects” by The Chainsmokers.
- I haven’t done any personal book reading because I’m super exhausted by the time I get home. Actually, I haven’t been doing the things that I usually do like journaling, blogging, and working out.
I’m trying to find the best way to balance everything. I definitely want to continue to be part of the blogging world 🙂
What have you been up to?
If I had the money I’d probably complete an MFA in creative writing or more specifically poetry. Since I have to be realistic, I chose a degree that I concluded would make me more marketable since I’m not planning to have book published any time soon because I’m not writing one.
I chose a Master’s in Special Education with a focus on Autism Spectrum Disorders. It’s online, it’s provided by the same university where I got my bachelor’s degree, so it wouldn’t require me to move out of state and pay out-of-state fees, did I say it’s online? So I can keep my full-time job. Also, I have feeling that if I don’t do it now, I’ll probably never go back to university. My goal is to learn knowledge and skills that will help me be a better teacher for all of my student especially my students who are in my school’s special education program.