One simple tip to help you stay positive

Even if it ever starts sounding overrated, gratitude is so beneficial because it helps you shift your focus to (not necessarily) all the positive, but (in the least) to not stay stuck on the negative things going on.

For example, I’ve been super grateful for all of the people who kept their calm or positivity at the beginning of all the change Covid-19 brought with it. Grateful for the people who led and have been leading with heart, who kept going, who showed up not just for themselves but for the rest of the world.

I say this because it took me a while to take it in, to process it all. Knowing myself, I knew it was going to take some effort to keep my sanity. So one of the very of the very first things I started doing regularly again was gratitude journaling.

How gratitude helps you stay positive

Gratitude helps shift your focus to the thoughts and energy that will help you get back on your journey. You may not feel like your normal self, but you’re more open to having a this-is-figuroutable attitude.

With gratitude, it’s easier to find value in what you have in this present moment, to not focus on loss–in what you had yesterday–or in what tomorrow brings, but to focus on what’s within your reach now.

Photo by Alysha Rosly on Unsplash

What does the future hold?

How many times have I walked on the path of this park? The grass has gone from green to yellow and from yellow to green so many times that sometimes I see green grass and dandelions in December.

Did I see kites on the sky last spring or have I seen them every year? I’ve been coming to this park for so long and always with different emotions. Sometimes the ducks and the geese are here, and they will never know how much I have lost and lose again when I remember.

Elizabeth Bishop wrote, The art of losing isn’t hard to master. / Then practice losing farther, losing faster: / places, and names, and where it was you meant / to travel. Learning loss was never my intention. I lost my father figure at seventeen, and I lose him again when I remember.

When I walk on the path of this park, I see people who I’ve seen before: the couple, the runner in her pony tail, the family of four, the man with a hunched back and gray hair. These details seem inconsequential everywhere else but here.

This is the park that changes and also stays the same. I think about how much I’ve changed since the first day I ran in this park. I walk in it now because I don’t run anymore (I don’t run anymore because of an ankle fracture).

Of what remains the same, I keep visiting this park. As I walk in this park, sometimes I see the clear divide between the person I am today and the person I was 8 years ago.

As I walked in this park, I was often lost in the same thoughts and questions I had 8 years ago. I asked myself, What does the future hold for me?

The park had been trying to teach me a lesson it has taken me 8 years to learn. As I walked on the park’s path, I thought a lot about the future. The park repeated: There is no future. There is no future. I didn’t listen. I held on to my illusions.

Photos of the Park


Inspiration

Louise Gluck’s poem “October” and the blog Writings from the Couch inspired this post.

A Lesson in the Failure

Starting graduate school last year was one of the most educational experiences I’ve had about learning to let go when the time isn’t right. I pushed myself into graduate school for multiple reasons, and by then end of 2018, I decided I needed a break from university. I can’t tell your right now if the break is a break or if I will turn into a grad-school drop out.

I can tell you that this decision made me feel like I failed.

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